Recaps
Ok. First of all I have to say I have the most awesome sister. She found out that none of my friends were going to make it to the finish line to cheer me in so she made me a podcast! It was great running music interspersed with her and my brother-in-law cheering me on! I listened to part of it to pump myself up before heading out to the race. The first song was the best song of all and I tried to find a video of it to post here but I couldn't find one so you'll just have to read the lyrics. It totally captures how I feel today!
Here are the race stats:
GenderPlace AgePlace FinishTime NetTime Pace/Mile AG%
1363 589 1:03:52 1:01:35 9:55 49.2 %
That's right people!
1. I broke the 10 min/mi for the first time in my life!
2. I'm finally average! (doing the happy dance!)
This was the Scotland 10K Run so there were kilts everywhere and all I could think of were the guys I went to high school with who used to wear kilts to school just to annoy the administration. I was not anticipating being surrounded by a herd of people the entire time but there were so many participants it was unavoidable. I had to walk for a minute but that was all and when I got done I knew that I had nothing else to give. I went out at a good pace - not too fast, not too slow. But at the end, I realized when I was done...I sprinted by bringing my knees up instead of simply increasing my cadence. Duly noted for next time.
At first I was disappointed that none of my friends could find the time to come out and cheer me in at the finish line but in the end it was the only way it should have been. I've said it before and I'll say it again: a huge part of this journey in triathlon is about me finding my validation within myself and not looking for it in other people. Had people come to the race I wouldn't have discovered that at the end it didn't matter that no one was there. I was proud of myself regardless of whether anyone else knew what I had done or not. It's a simple thing...I think it's an obvious thing for a lot of people. But for me it was like waking up from a very very long nap. I set a goal, I put in the time, and today I accomplished the first small step on my way to that goal. I've had a lot of big dreams in my life but I always gave into the fear of what might happen if I tried and failed. I've bailed before I arrived or I leaped without having a parachute and hoped no one would notice (you know..because someone careening to their destruction is SO hard to miss!)
It's funny because ever since I got my race packet last Thursday, something inside me changed. I thought about being Habeela and it makes sense but in a different way than before. Now the only thing that makes me crazy is the fact that I allowed fear to keep me from my dreams and my full potential for so long. I'm still looking for what the transformation has resulted in...it's not Lorelei because I sense that Lorelei has a lot of anger and bitterness and she causes destruction. No, it's something else...something hopeful, powerful, intelligent, peaceful, healing....and impatient because I can't wait for race season to start!
Here are the race stats:
GenderPlace AgePlace FinishTime NetTime Pace/Mile AG%
1363 589 1:03:52 1:01:35 9:55 49.2 %
That's right people!
1. I broke the 10 min/mi for the first time in my life!
2. I'm finally average! (doing the happy dance!)
This was the Scotland 10K Run so there were kilts everywhere and all I could think of were the guys I went to high school with who used to wear kilts to school just to annoy the administration. I was not anticipating being surrounded by a herd of people the entire time but there were so many participants it was unavoidable. I had to walk for a minute but that was all and when I got done I knew that I had nothing else to give. I went out at a good pace - not too fast, not too slow. But at the end, I realized when I was done...I sprinted by bringing my knees up instead of simply increasing my cadence. Duly noted for next time.
At first I was disappointed that none of my friends could find the time to come out and cheer me in at the finish line but in the end it was the only way it should have been. I've said it before and I'll say it again: a huge part of this journey in triathlon is about me finding my validation within myself and not looking for it in other people. Had people come to the race I wouldn't have discovered that at the end it didn't matter that no one was there. I was proud of myself regardless of whether anyone else knew what I had done or not. It's a simple thing...I think it's an obvious thing for a lot of people. But for me it was like waking up from a very very long nap. I set a goal, I put in the time, and today I accomplished the first small step on my way to that goal. I've had a lot of big dreams in my life but I always gave into the fear of what might happen if I tried and failed. I've bailed before I arrived or I leaped without having a parachute and hoped no one would notice (you know..because someone careening to their destruction is SO hard to miss!)
It's funny because ever since I got my race packet last Thursday, something inside me changed. I thought about being Habeela and it makes sense but in a different way than before. Now the only thing that makes me crazy is the fact that I allowed fear to keep me from my dreams and my full potential for so long. I'm still looking for what the transformation has resulted in...it's not Lorelei because I sense that Lorelei has a lot of anger and bitterness and she causes destruction. No, it's something else...something hopeful, powerful, intelligent, peaceful, healing....and impatient because I can't wait for race season to start!
posted by Habeela at 1:21 PM
5 Comments:
well done! life starts at 10 min/miles!! you are on your way.
I know what you mean about finding yourself in sport. I'm certainly going through that process. I've used the analogy of finding something in an attic of an old house. You know it's up there somewhere but you long forgot why you had it in the first place. Then you find it again and realize it was really cool.
Awesome job with the run.
Your sis is so nice.
My family never went to my race but they are super supportive during my training.
That helped a lot during race day. No way I am going to quit for all the hard work me and my family put through.
Hey, way to go on breaking 10 min miles!
congrats on breaking the 10 min mile in the scotland run!
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